well, last nights events were deffiantly eventful to say the least. i drunk a lot, a lot alot to much infact, i threw up nemourous times in the toilet and i have never done that before. kissed a 17 year old, then kissed zeb. talked alot, dont remember much of anything. dancing a bit and drinking some more and right now i feel like im about to die just quitely. oh and now im 20 SHIT. 

so it is my birthday party tomorrow, and im SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh i cant wait to get loose fucking drunk, dance my ass off, be with all my friends and just kiss a boy, a good boy!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh CANT FUCKING WAITTTTTTT!!!!!! 

DANCE, DRINK, TALK, KISS, DRINK, DANCE, DANCE, DANCE, DRINK, KISS, TALK, DANCE, DRINK, KISS, BED. 

sooooo, the night was sort of shitty but sort of not. shit part of it was i was like 2 years older than everyone but atleast i had sarah. and there wasnt alot of people and luke and adam didnt get there till 10 and i ran on to a hockey oval and fell in  ditch. on the up side i caught up with them all, got drunk, had a dance, no kissing, woke up at adams house and now i have a rehersal at 6. go me

last night, well last night was deffiantly interesting to say the least…. a guy that i met from uni we have been speaking heaps lately. and he came over last night and we hooked up. but first he thought he needed to tell me about how the last girl he started kissing ended up liking him, but he didn’t like her.. and he didn’t want that to happen to us. little did he know that i’m normally always in that position the boys that i kiss for fun get attached and the boys i kiss that i may have feeling for don’t want a relationship. so he came under the tree of one of the boys i kiss for fun. which is good because we have an understanding which works. however i don’t know when boys go like this with me they end up getting feelings feels that i don’t want there so i have to stop kissing them. fingers crossed it doesn’t happen to this one. im moving on from drummer boy, he takes to much effort its fucked so no go there anymore. all i can say now that my birthday party will be an interesting time. im actually scared about it! but for all the right reasons. i have a feeling that my 20th will be start of something new. bring it onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! 

xo

he didn’t text me back, i swear i will be the old lady with 50 cats. the thing with me is i have guys, but not the guys who want relationships. yeppppppp just my luck. so i guess ill keep writing songs about how my prince will come one day soon. or i can accept that life is not a fairytale no matter how much i want it to be.

just posted a video of myself singing on facebook.. have never done anything like that before and im scared of what others will think haha fuck but i did it! im taking chances in my life now and never looking back!